Abuse

» settler - i am in a verbally abusive marriage.

I have tried the trusting game so many times that she will not get much of that from me ever again. I did go so fare as to have a seperated e-mail account that she new nothing about. When I did get a little carless a few weeks ago and she found out that it existed she tried to brake into it. It is now completely gone and I have a new one that she can not reach. What little bit of trust I was willing to start giving her is gone and every time I go to that new account it serves as a reminder to not trust her again.

Everything will go through my own lawyer and even when we can agree apone anything I will have it in writing and as many loop holes plugged that I can find. I'm not giving trust any more.

I believe in trusting someone to a level, until you get to know them, and I generally trust them quicker than most people are willing to trust someone. Once someone breaks that I will give them many chances, but she has done enough that several friends, including several of hers, have said that they would have devorced her long ago.

She has said many times over the last year that "she is behaving better and not like that anymore". After awhile I realized that, no last week you proved that you were still of the same mind. Maybe at another time it had been two months, but after all the years two months isn't time for me to forgive, forget and trust completely again. Well the last time was last week! That has happened to many times. I think she has finally stoped using that fraze on me.

No I won't trust!

Settler

-- posted by settler