Abuse

» stress30 - me turning crazy now

Little update: My husband went to my family today and told them how I hit him and throw things and yell and scream at him all the time for stupid things. My family then came over and we fought in front of them and I started yelling and screaming and throwing things in front of them, i was out of control as i have been recenlty. I react to the things he has said and done that i lose my "crap" all the time now. I can't take it anymore and all I can do is yell. He seems more calm but underneath he manipulates his way into making anyone believe him and now my own family thinks I am the one who is crazy. They asked what he has done and i couldn't even pinpoint it. I couldn't give anything to them, i was speechless. There are so many things that he has said to me and done that I couldnt just think of one particular thing. Now i'm the one who is crazy and he is lovign every minute of this. I know i shouldn't react to him but i cannot help it, he makes me so mad, madder than i have ever ever been in my entire lfe.. He is making me crazy. This morning he got mad at me for not "wanting him", after i worked all night, (8 months pregnant and was in a lot of pain). He says I never want it anymore, How can he be this way when i am this pregnant and working nights and taking care of a toddler as well. He is extrememly selfish, that was this morning, then he got mad after he got home because there weren't any pictures of him up on the walls of my parents house (where he picked up our son), but there was a picture of my ex(my stepdad and him were best friends, they are the same age) I know that sounds weird but there is always something wrong and he uses my episodes of anger at him for the things he does to "show' how crazy I am to everyone else. Now the ball is in his court because i lose my "temper" with him. I guess teh people who are being verbal, mentally, and emotionally abused should just sit there and take it?? I had to send "proof" to my stepdad so they would believe me. I sent email exchanges that my husband and I had oon a night of one of our fights while i was at work, just to "prove" to him the things he says are crazy. You can't prove mental abuse, and that sucks. I dont know what to do now. He's got me exactly where he wants me now. he can use that against me for the rest of his life. Even though he is the king manipulator, i've never seen anything like it. He's so good that nobody can see it exept me. HELP?????!?!?!!

-- posted by stress30