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» magictouch - whats wrong with me...why am i stuck????

In response to whats wrong with me...why am i stuck???? posted by somuchmore:

Hi there,

I appologize for the delay of writing back. I was alittle down coping with my break up.

Am feeling much better now, arrghhhh just got an email from him, feel like crying now!Great that was a short lived feeling better!
You're not alone. I feel the same way too and I feel so lousy that I am so stuck just like you. I still love him and miss him very dearly.

It was very heart warming reading your post, finally I did not feel alone.I still do not understand why I am finding it so hard to wipe him out of my mind and heart.My closest friend just cannot understand how I can still have feelings for him.

Your parents remind me so much of mine, my mom and dad were praying very hard too.I am a muslim. Finally when I broke up, my dad made me promise that I would never go back to him. Both my parents have been incredibly supportive and loving. However, I did dissapoint then for about a week for going back to him, but this was before my dad made me promise! I went back the 3rd time because there were these speacial prayers he could have done, and I though ok I can go back because I haave a tool I can use that could perhaps change him! Sadly enough to reliaze that I was me who wanted to do the prayer, he said he would, but I could feel the drive was coming from me. Until today, he still does not realize what he does.It has been 3 weeks now since we have broken up. I have had NO contact with him, he emails almost everyday, but I do not reply, he calls , I do not answer. He is seeing a pscychiatrist now, he is down to his 4th visit.The doctor still is not too sure if he is verbally abusive as I hardly spoke during the past session and I was still not sure too.

I have had the most horrible 3 weeks ever, I too have been depressed, soo depressed...deep down inside, I want things to work out too, soo much. We were meant to be married and I could see alife with him in the beginning of the relationship.

If you need a source of support, which I know I could use too, please feel free to email me at
magictouch77@gmail.com

-- posted by magictouch