Abuse

» somuchmore - hello magictouch and mandy38 - you were so right!!!

i have just emailed your gmail acct. i havent checked this board in a few days as i have been doing long hours at work. I am glad you felt like someone understood after you read my post!!

It has been a week, and as Mandy38 pointed out to me...it totally seems like he is tryin to get me back. Mandy you were so right!!!The first few days he was mean to me, but now he keeps contacting me, and even said, "do you think we should still keep trying to go out"..."i think i just have it stuck in my head that i should still be going out with you, but now you reminded me why i dont want to" he's so rude.....
and i just said, i cant talk about this. i have to get up at 5. i'll talk to you later type thing. However, even though it seems like he wants me back - he still managed to throw a mean putdown in the conversation. He got annoyed at something i said/did, and said - "I dont know how anybody could ever live with you"...Yeah, nice..thanks....all my roommates have said i was one of the best ppl to live with ever! So even though he is trying to get my attention..he is still mean....
He complains about me, but yet he keeps asking me to do stuff and texting me like every freakin day..If i am so terrible as he always makes me sound..why does he keep talking to me...wanting me...so frustrating....

anyways, i will update more later everyone. i am too exhausted....and magic touch, we can talk thru email soon.

no matter what is going on....remember to take care of yourself: get lots of sleep, eat right, do things for you....things that make you happy....it's so important right now even though i know you might not be motivated to do it cuz you feel sad and down....just try - often if you do the action, the good feelings will follow after and you will feel better (trust me i know..i have struggled with depression many times!)....make a committment to your happiness. I just keep trying to tell myself that "this too shall pass" and while things hurt right now and are confusing....one day i could be SO thankful for this time because it may have SAVED my life and prevented me from a lifetime of misery. This pain will not last forever. Never settle.

-- posted by somuchmore