Abuse

» gemnjun - I thought he was into me and cared...

I met this guy about six months ago and everything was good and we moved in together. We hit a few rough spots but I thought that was all they were. He called me an "Idiot" at the dark park because I threw the ball in the dirt instead of off to the side in the grass. That was the first incident and I told him to not talk to me like that again. Well 6 months later those words seem to be flowing more freely from his mouth. The other day I turned on the heater and he came out from the back telling telling me to check the windows before I turn on the heat. I explained to him that the windows should not be open anyways when it is cold outside. He went on to tell me to stop explaining myself and that he was just making a statement. Then he told me to "just accept that I am stupid and a moron." As I walked out of the room I said to him that I hoped he felt better about himself. The next day I felt really down on myself and started thinking that maybe I was stupid (mind you I have a steady job, I pay for the bills and I am the one with the degree).
This is our typical day: He kisses me goodbye everymorning before he leaves for work and we kiss each other hello after a day at work(If I forget to kiss him he will ask why I didn't kiss him in a sincere way). Then for the next three hours I am busting my bit to get dinner made and then after dinner sit in silence as he watches tv and does not want to be bothered with me and answer my stupid questions. We go to bed and he holds me tight as though he really means it. I don't understand how can someone hold you and kiss you, but still treat you like crap.

-- posted by gemnjun