Abuse

» ConfusedMom2006 - Re:Emotional and Verbal Abuse by my husband.

Hi! how are you all? I could be better. I am a mother of 5 only 1 lives with me whom is a 2 year old. I have been with this man whom is 40 since 1999 and we have been married only 2 months. I and he argue a lot and have not a lot in common. I have to live with this day in and day out. He puts me down about finances, my weight and I am mildly plum he is thinner. We have argued to to point a couple of times where things are thrown around the room. Softer things. We do not hit or punch or shove each other. But verbal and emotional abuse is consuming us. We argue about every 2 weeks. I have only my mother,sister and 18 year old daughter 24 miles away, my sister and I cannot live together. All my other family is in Maine. I have a cousin in Washington state. I am in Oregon. I do not feel like I am in love with this person anymore I live with and we stress out daily. I have been told to leave him and move on by everyone I have talked to about this. I want the best for me and my son. I cannot live with stress anymore. I am depressed, I have P.T.S.D and may have Bipolar and not know it. I was abused Physically,emotionally,verbally by a past boyfriend whom also has 3 of my boys, half indian. Their father drank and did drugs. Not the guy I am with. I have not seen my other boys since 10 years ago. I have no where to stay and I just want to be happy. I want someone to love me for me. I do not see this in my husband. I have lived in fear most of my life and still cannot let go of wondering if my ex will find me and hurt me. Has anyone or IS anyone going through this? What advice can you give me. I am done with ANY type of abusive relationships and do not know where to turn. I have not been able to even find work for 3 years I am sure it is because of the depression.

Thank You.

Tina

-- posted by ConfusedMom2006